Belief is a beautiful armor.

I believe.

I believe in a lot of things.

I believe in art.

I believe in science.

I believe in spirituality.

I believe in creation.

I believe in fun.

I believe in peace.

I believe in veganism.

I believe in organic food.

I believe in laughter.

I believe in smiling.

I believe in dreaming.

I believe in humanity.

I believe in innovation

I believe in imagination.

I believe in intuition.

I believe in perception.

I believe that people are generally good.

I believe in myself.

I believe that one day, I will be a movie star.

I believe in love.

I believe in music.

I believe in The Beatles, The Stone, and Zeppelin.

I believe in classical music.

I believe in rap music, in intellectual hip hop.

In Kanye, Lupe, Cudi and Slug.

In Nicki and Wayne.

I believe in PASSION.

I believe in freedom.

I believe in giving.

I believe in massage, meditation and sharing showers.

I believe in ethical farming and ethical trading.

I believe that inspiration can be found in anything.

I believe in friends.

I believe in family.

In a good night’s sleep.

In gay marriage.

In constitutionalism.

In legalizing marijuana.

In exercise,

In excitement,

In anticipation.

In sex,

in kissing, in holding hands,

in real eye contact.

in firm hand shakes,

in movies being life changing experiences,

in children being the smartest humans on earth.

in fruits,

in vegetables,

in whole grains,

in nuts and seeds.

healing,

health,

hiking,

clean air,

clean water,

clean energy,

sunshine,

acceptance,

tolerance,

balloons,

running shoes,

stretching,

hugging,

the perfect soundtrack,

perfect strangers.

I WANT TO BE HEARD.

I WANT PEOPLE TO LISTEN.

I believe in YOU.

I believe that each and every one of you holds the raw chemical material required to change the world. You all have the spark of life inside of you to do whatever your heart desires. You are full of wonder. Some scientific and spiritual miracle constitutes your existence. There is noting greater or more powerful on this planet than you, and your pure potential.

I believe in a lot of things... but most importantly...

The only thing that matters is that...

I believe.

Clearly I am incapable of making a decision. Something has, however, clicked for me. The reason I have always been able to succeed as an actor is because of my capability to incite passion in others. I once wrote a monologue for a directing piece in which I shared my personal beliefs, and I have never gotten a greater response out of an audience. People felt what I felt. I got them on my side. I got them to believe.

In this day and age, that gift can be utilized to create a huge change within our society and within the world. My ambitions once were to win an academy award. Now they have changed. Because I see something greater in my future and in the future of this country, and of the world. I see myself making the world turn, and helping things to get better. I see myself helping other people ignite the passion in themselves to be the best they can be, in order to make a change in the world.

Gandhi said "Be the change you want to see in the world." This is so simple and so powerful. This statement is inspiring me to make my own changes so that I can make a difference. I've always known there is something out there for me to accomplish that is huge. It goes beyond what I want to do and delves in to what my responsibilities are.

My responsibilities as a US citizen and as a citizen of the world are to:

1) Make peace

2) Create a truly working society in which people are free and equal, united together through love and a yearning to survive.

3) Make an astronomical change in the way people treat our mother earth.

In the society I see myself helping to create, every individual is happy and pleased. We, the people would BE the government itself. Those who speak and implement decisions would represent us, to the best of their abilities, and be as true to what the people want as possible. I know this is how the US is supposed to be right now, but the fact of the matter is that it isn't. Now people are starting a revolution and I want to be a part of it because I am a member of the 99%. There should be no fear involved in government or the persistence of humanity.

I want to make a difference. I want to stand up for what I believe in, and change the way the world works. Because it isn't impossible. The world will always be here, spinning out in chaos until we, as a people, of the WORLD itself, come together in true harmony to love and nurture each other.

The world is in a place right now, where we cannot get along. There is hatred, war, hunger, poverty, disease, and the most tragic, a lack of willingness to be one. Because as one people, the brilliant minds in the world could solve these problems.

I refuse to believe that there isn't a way. I refuse to take "this is the way things are" laying down. I don't want to waste one more second not taking action. It is time. It is time we joined together. One people, under love. Unified by our biggest commonality, the fact that we are living humans.

Well, I guess I made my decision.

Portia: She loves him.

Nor for yours neither. You've ungently, Brutus,

Stole from my bed. And yesternight at supper,

You suddenly arose and walked about.

Musing and sighing with your arms across,

And when I asked you what the matter was,

You looked upon me with ungentle looks,

I urged you further; then you scratched your head,

And too impatiently stamped with your foot.

Yet I insisted, yet you answered not,

but with an angry wafture of your hand,

gave sign for me to leave you, so I did.

Fearing to strengthen that impatience,

which seem'd too much enkindled, and withal

Hoping it was but an effect of humor,

which sometime hath his hour with every man.

It will not let you eat, nor talk, nor sleep,

And could it work so much upon your shape,

As it hath much prevail'd on your condition,

I would not know you, Brutus, Dear my lord,

Make me acquainted with your cause of grief.

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Rep yo city

A plethora of possibilities, an impossible conundrum.

When I'm left alone with my thoughts all day, I receive inspiration and revelations. However, they always conflict.

I realize there is so much I want to achieve. So many things I wish to possess, and so many ambitions to create change. In essence, there are so many different lives I want to live.

That was all well and good, but now I am beginning a truly adult life and a truly independent life. It means I must make a decision on which dream to follow. This isn't an "I'll choose door three" type of decision however. It is the one that decides my happiness. How do you choose which life to live when you are passionate about so many different things?

Door one:

(the lifelong dream)

Career: actress

Place of residence: Wherever the work takes me

Goal of a lifetime: Academy Award (I scoff at my own naivety)

Side project: Philanthropy

Difficulty level: EXTREME

Probability: Highly unlikely/slim-to-none

Downfalls: Maintaining a family, a long, grueling industry almost impossible to conquer, many sacrifices will have to be made along the way and financial insecurity is inevitable, must be able to handle great deals of change.

Door two:

(the reoccurring dream)

Career: doctor

Place of residence: somewhere green with prolific vegetation, somewhere steady and unchanging. Some permanent residence.

Goal of a lifetime: Making a significant difference in human lives, healing.

Side project: Raising a family, keeping a home.

Difficulty level: EXTREME

Probability: Unlikely. If I could access the potential it takes to maintain such a demanding and difficult career, more probable than door one

Downfalls: I am already behind in this track of life, takes ultimate concentration, intelligence and stability, my lack of knowledge is astounding.

Door Three:

(my soul's dream)

Career: political figure/leader/philanthropist/creator of change

Place of residence: Wherever the work takes me

Goal of a lifetime: Make a significant difference in the world, restore peace and in essence, I wish to save the world (again with the scoffing)

Side project: Maintaining a family

Probability: ...

Downfalls: I am not even close to being on this career track.

Each of these dreams are highly ambitious and take 110% dedication and a lifetime of education, loads of money and focus. They are so different and I am at a major fork in the road. How can I make such a decision, I don't know the repercussions that can come from these tracks. How can I make strides towards a life, if I don't even know which life I wish to pursue? How can I focus, when my mind is plagued with personal, mortal issues. How does one overcome such issues and waft through the minutia in order to pursue goals, dreams and career paths?

No matter what, I want to be a learned person who understands life, the universe and how to change the world for the better. I want to be a scholar, immersed in literature, theatre and cinema, and a performer, a healer, and a wife (one day FAR from today), I want to travel and see the world. I want to know who I am, understand myself. Make a difference. Help people. Explore. Excavate. Yet I feel like as large as my dreams are, what am I doing about it? All of my dreams seem possible in essence... and on a logical level, IMPOSSIBLE.